3 Years

lonely nights have come again ..where once i laughed and smiled is dead ...
the nights went fast i had a blast ...u washed a dish made all clean at last .
.two lonely souls met by chance ,,,you even had time to dance .
.you made me whole and made me feel ..but then one day you took away my thrill
..now im lonely the nights have returned ..
.i guess i was not enough for your heart to yearn ..tears on my cheeks my eyes so burn ...cant fall asleep no matter how i turn ..Lights on or off its still the same ..3 years later and no one to blame ...

ETERNITY

Essence of Eternity wears heavy on my chest ,
So comfortable with you ,,,I never have to rest ,
Flowing dreams that come and go , we talk we laugh where does time go ..
a simple touch a kiss a smile ..lay in your arms and talk awhile ...
Then all the signs come rushing in ..you close your eyes and try to pretend ..
wat you are seeing is not real ..please dear god i dont want to feel..then comes the truth at the end they always see ...im not the one ..she is not me ,,,

dirty shower thoughts

I lay here in my hot steamy shower ..water trinkling down upon my body ...
makes my mind wonder i began to fantasize . I think of months befor it was night .
I remember it ever so clearly i had a date for olive garden.
I was having the worst time tryin to figure wat to wear .
.I went with a white skirt and simple top . we met at the resturant he told me i could wait in his
truck while he checked how long it would be till a table was ready ...
so i scooted in his truck minutes went by he came back to truck .
.looking down at me he felt ever so tempted .He ran his hands down my legs
.i wrestled them softly together ..next he gently pulled my knees apart just to touch it
he thought see it ..caress it ..I was getting hot by the minute so was he it was parking lot cars
everywhere and yet i had this gorgeous man with his face all in between my legs .
i closed my eyes and bit my lip oh my heart was racing at that moment i was back in the bathtub and
caressing my kitty so softly .. the water from the shower felt like i was back in that truck
on his tongue will he was enjoying my taste craving it almost .....

Secrets of rich mans closet ....

to ask one such a question does not usually floor the normal man ..however this man i felt it might take a eternity for him to even try to explain ...i trembled softly as he reached to me holding his hand out softly ....


I walked around this house i wonder oh so much how it looked. In 8 months i always wondered .
He showed me all his accomplishments and i saw all the traces of a married family man . What have I done .
I layed in his bed he pleasured me amincly .As i lay there looking around i see everything the jewelry her clothes her name .
Emily sketched lightly on the paper on her jewery box .. I had become what i never wanted to be
.I was the mistress in the rich mans closet . It all made since now .Why did i fall in love with man with so many secrets .
How could i let my vulnarable heart feel this way .. All my flash backs came fluttering back . Memories of my husband .
I was married to one man togther 10 years when it all fell apart .. I remebered that cool autumn night when i got off of work and went by his apartment.
We had been astranged for a few months but he kept askin me would i consider us gettin a new house togther ..I was really considering it till i drove up .
I saw a company employess car out front .
I knew it was Rochelles car i walked to door and knocked twice no one anserwed ,so i let myself in i walked down hall way and started to open door as i did ..
i saw my husband bouncing up pull up his sweats .Rochelle was behind him .All the anger rushed through my body all the lies and deceit my husband stop coming home it was all her ..
I knew it deep down i snapped in a violent rage .I lunged for both of them naturally he defended her .Me and my husband fought like to sore tailed cats .
Finally when seeing this ends it i just walked away ..

It had been 2 years since that night. I had not looked back i had it erased it from my memory .Yet now on this day lying in this others mans arms lookin around
i now see what i have become ..I have turned into Rochelle . At that moment all joy went from me .All color from my skin and the sadness set in ..
There was no happy ending for me .I was just a secret of one rich mans closet