Nights Poetry

unfinshed

2009-06-28T18:59:00.001-07:00

Lost and lonely is how I feel, sleeps a burden
I try to deal .. The smiles came first a sweetness I saw ,
I felt I fit ,how well we draw ..there was no patience ,no time to grow
Never met no one like you ,it was not a show , I was not ready u had to know .
The timing was off my life was a mess ..I don’t blame you ..you
Did your best ..I’m sorry for the doubts for the fears and the fights ..

Nighty Erotica

2009-01-19T10:25:00.000-08:00

he comes to me almost like a dream ,kisses my thighs and wants in between .touches me softly our bodies move as one .time sets still no one has to run ...then he pushes harder a key well to place . he looks in my eyes the sweat glistening off his face ...

this is so true( Whitehorse )

2009-01-16T10:12:00.000-08:00

Heartless

2009-01-13T18:04:00.000-08:00

shadows dancing on the wall. nothing matters not at all .
love and passion we both share .something weighin heavey ,
more than i can bare. tell me that you love me
and it is not a lie ..that it does not matter

even if i cry .you ll always love me, and youll never leave .
tell me this i need to believe .without your love i just cant breath

Men

2009-01-04T22:32:00.000-08:00

I never should of known you ..i never should of cared .you lied to me ..and i was always there .im not perfect . i know this is true .but i have nothing to hide .. i did not lie to you . if you ask me i tell you .you know this is so ..how could you hurt me you really blow ...

your gone .....

2009-01-02T11:55:00.000-08:00

troubleing thoughts that weigh on my shoulders
i think of you and wanting to grow older
...troubled times strains us both
now u are almost like a ghost
floatin in and out my troubled walls
catchin me always when i fall
i feel your gone im sad to say .
..it hurts soo bad your far away

2008-11-24T10:59:00.000-08:00

3 Years

2008-11-23T20:12:00.000-08:00

lonely nights have come again ..where once i laughed and smiled is dead ...
the nights went fast i had a blast ...u washed a dish made all clean at last .
.two lonely souls met by chance ,,,you even had time to dance .
.you made me whole and made me feel ..but then one day you took away my thrill
..now im lonely the nights have returned ..
.i guess i was not enough for your heart to yearn ..tears on my cheeks my eyes so burn ...cant fall asleep no matter how i turn ..Lights on or off its still the same ..3 years later and no one to blame ...

ETERNITY

2008-11-18T11:46:00.000-08:00

Essence of Eternity wears heavy on my chest ,
So comfortable with you ,,,I never have to rest ,
Flowing dreams that come and go , we talk we laugh where does time go ..
a simple touch a kiss a smile ..lay in your arms and talk awhile ...
Then all the signs come rushing in ..you close your eyes and try to pretend ..
wat you are seeing is not real ..please dear god i dont want to feel..then comes the truth at the end they always see ...im not the one ..she is not me ,,,

dirty shower thoughts

2008-11-15T08:12:00.000-08:00

I lay here in my hot steamy shower ..water trinkling down upon my body ...
makes my mind wonder i began to fantasize . I think of months befor it was night .
I remember it ever so clearly i had a date for olive garden.
I was having the worst time tryin to figure wat to wear .
.I went with a white skirt and simple top . we met at the resturant he told me i could wait in his
truck while he checked how long it would be till a table was ready ...
so i scooted in his truck minutes went by he came back to truck .
.looking down at me he felt ever so tempted .He ran his hands down my legs
.i wrestled them softly together ..next he gently pulled my knees apart just to touch it
he thought see it ..caress it ..I was getting hot by the minute so was he it was parking lot cars
everywhere and yet i had this gorgeous man with his face all in between my legs .
i closed my eyes and bit my lip oh my heart was racing at that moment i was back in the bathtub and
caressing my kitty so softly .. the water from the shower felt like i was back in that truck
on his tongue will he was enjoying my taste craving it almost .....

Secrets of rich mans closet ....

2008-11-05T14:47:00.000-08:00

to ask one such a question does not usually floor the normal man ..however this man i felt it might take a eternity for him to even try to explain ...i trembled softly as he reached to me holding his hand out softly ....

I walked around this house i wonder oh so much how it looked. In 8 months i always wondered .
He showed me all his accomplishments and i saw all the traces of a married family man . What have I done .
I layed in his bed he pleasured me amincly .As i lay there looking around i see everything the jewelry her clothes her name .
Emily sketched lightly on the paper on her jewery box .. I had become what i never wanted to be
.I was the mistress in the rich mans closet . It all made since now .Why did i fall in love with man with so many secrets .
How could i let my vulnarable heart feel this way .. All my flash backs came fluttering back . Memories of my husband .
I was married to one man togther 10 years when it all fell apart .. I remebered that cool autumn night when i got off of work and went by his apartment.
We had been astranged for a few months but he kept askin me would i consider us gettin a new house togther ..I was really considering it till i drove up .
I saw a company employess car out front .
I knew it was Rochelles car i walked to door and knocked twice no one anserwed ,so i let myself in i walked down hall way and started to open door as i did ..
i saw my husband bouncing up pull up his sweats .Rochelle was behind him .All the anger rushed through my body all the lies and deceit my husband stop coming home it was all her ..
I knew it deep down i snapped in a violent rage .I lunged for both of them naturally he defended her .Me and my husband fought like to sore tailed cats .
Finally when seeing this ends it i just walked away ..

It had been 2 years since that night. I had not looked back i had it erased it from my memory .Yet now on this day lying in this others mans arms lookin around
i now see what i have become ..I have turned into Rochelle . At that moment all joy went from me .All color from my skin and the sadness set in ..
There was no happy ending for me .I was just a secret of one rich mans closet

my birthday

2008-09-15T17:46:00.001-07:00

he did not notice he did not care ..
.my heart was broken this is not rare .
.after a year nearly two .
.why did he not know ..
this really blew .
.i was nothing to him not even a friend
..a friend u dont forget ..
u dont lie its just the end ..

never ever .....

2008-06-25T12:33:00.000-07:00

wave on wave

2008-06-12T13:10:00.000-07:00

fire fire

2008-06-11T20:34:00.001-07:00

FIRE FIRE FLAMES DESIRE SEX AND LOVE LIFT ME HIGHER ,
nasty thoughts sink in my head befor i knew that u were dead ,
a love i thought would always last makes my mind go to the past ..
i think of all the love we shared and how i questioned if u cared ...
a love i thought would never end i guess my heart will never mend ...

unspoken thoughts

2008-06-11T20:29:00.000-07:00

Passion erupts from deep withen ,makes my body want to sin .kindred spirits warm embrace ..flicker lights moods enhance you pierce my skin my heart will race ,,you bite my lips how well i taste .I look in your eyes entrapped by the night .pulling my head down into the light ..you scratch your nails all down mu back ..biting knibbling upon my neck ..in heated passion a mighty thrust ..i turn to u but should i trust ..the need is gone you have to rush ...thank you sir you made me blush....

lovers curse

2008-06-11T20:28:00.000-07:00

A troubled soul ,,her heart on hold her love was lost ..

to try and repair there is a cost...

To live in real world she is cursed never adorned ..

Fallen from grace always feels her heart is torn ..

She meets a man of style and taste ..

she looks at him hopes her heart will race

Who is this man ,that caresses my hand talks

softly to me and tries to be friends ...

He chats with her and makes her live

smiles and laughs how much she will give

to walk with him upon a beach

talk with him be in his reach ..

Is he her love she asked of thee

to lift the curse and set her free,,,,,

* joshies *

2008-06-11T20:25:00.000-07:00

who would think it would come to this ..
i feel pain stricken from u r test ..
i only live why do u hate ..i came to you always i was not really late ..year and in half maybe u wanna escape ...
i was always there even until late
you got busy ..i got sad ...i went back in real world and you got mad ..i never stop caring not even a drop ...my love did not change it never stopped ...my real worlds a mess i only date ..
i think u r worried it is to late ..but u never came ..i guess im to blame ..but i wont stop loving u even if u hate ...

The perfect man

2008-06-11T15:05:00.000-07:00

the perfect man .
how will i know
Is it in his kiss
how well he will hold
Does he compliment and make you smile
laugh with you and sing awhile
Do your eyes sparkle in his embrace
When he touches you does your heart race
Is he the perfect man i cant deny .
If im hurting will he cry ...
can i have him please dont lie ..
without his love ill surely die

Pain

2008-06-11T14:53:00.000-07:00

We have grown apart ,
I see its true
I really don"t know what to do .
I felt your love ,But never knew .
I hurt you deep i know ..i sware
yes i did it ,just to see i could ..
Tortured by addiction , a twist of fate
Now i feel you must really hate
I am bad for you , I am no good ..
If i could take things back ,you know i would ..
You should walk away this i say .. find another who wants to play ..
And melt your heart so she shall . im not worth it now ..
you understand im thinkin of thee...my heart breaks deeply but it must be..
I let you go my dear sweet prince ..go find another who will love thee